Saturday 30 May 2009

Beautiful sight that took my breath away
My eyes feels soft and make my heart  calm

Fresh breeze that touched lightly against my skin
Brushing away all the misery and pain



Observer

I am an observer
I am the observer

Human in nature
Human and their heart

Sometimes it's very fascinating
Sometimes they amused me

I smiles in silence
I frown in silence

Hope that I could tell
Hope that I'm able to tell

Emphasize

Some people emphasize things what they are actually telling their own inner selves.
They are busy building a different outer image of them selves for others to acknowledge and accept.
They never thought that they are actually disclose their own selves.

Friday 29 May 2009

Music

A friend asked me why I did not move to the beat when I'm listening to a music. I never realised that I did not move at all. Am I not enjoying the music?

When there is a music or song that I like, usually I will hear it with my ears, feels it with my skin and listen it with my heart. I'm absorbing the whole and each of every bit of the it.

I'm enjoying it so deep and emotionally inside of me that I forgot everything outside of me. I forgot to move as well.

Friday 22 May 2009

Today, my day is better than yesterday

Today, my day is better than yesterday.
A precious moment to cherish, being a better person, a feeling that left me smiling for hours.

Today is better than yesterday

Today,

We are better than our yesterday
If we don't think so,
Then it's not too late to create one

A moment better than yesterday
A person better than yesterday
A feeling better than yesterday

Wednesday 20 May 2009

Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful when we care to listen and we listen with care

Time

Time waits for no one

If only we are able to stop just for a while
We try to see things with our souls
And we listen with our hearts

We will realized the things that we missed
That passed us by without knowing
We never realised when or why or where

At that time we will finally know
That we will able to catch up back
The things that we already missed

Saturday 9 May 2009

Calm sea is a very beautiful sight when the storm have cleared

I went hanging out with my buddies last night and ended up sleeping quite late. Was thinking about waking up late and chill out the rest of the day. Anyway what I planned is only a plan.

Early morning I was disturbed by this uneasiness that suddenly makes me awake from my sleep. I could not go back to sleep as this feeling so intense and feels like a bit of hatred. I know it's not mine and it must have reason why it reached me. I know it's pushing and pulling at the same time.

I waited for a few hours hoping for this feeling to cool down because it might be there in the other heart for only temporary. Since the storm just won't move away. I know it's the right moment to make a move.

I have listened, I have been patient, I made a move and I waited.

I listened and suddenly I smiled. The storm in the other heart have cleared and the sea is calm for the time being. It's good at least for the moment.

Calm sea is a very beautiful sight when the storm have cleared.

Forgotten Language of the Heart

A Language I was born with
A Language before any other language
Known it all my life but unable to understand it

Now it's time to learn back the language that I was born with
And it's time to learn from the begin although it seems familiar

I must be patient if I want to master it
And I must master it
I will master it

Since I've already halfway now

Friday 8 May 2009

Writing back again

A few months ago a good friend of mine been asking me why all my writing seems so sad and suggested me to write something happy. I will try as I said to her. I create a new blog for my happy things but leave it blank until now. I did try but I just can't think of anything to write in that blog. Then a few days ago the same good friend asking me again why suddenly I did not write anymore. I told her that I was quite busy and very tired for the passed weeks.

Now I'm writing back again and now my writings will be quite different from the previous one as part of me just woke up from the slumber sleep all this while.

Thank you to my good friend for still reading my blog although most of it quite difficult to understand.

It's a tough world but I just can't let my self down

Suddenly this morning words just pop up in my minds. It just emerge out of no where.

"It's a tough world but I just can't let my self down".

There always saying about help yourself first before you are able to help others or saying about loves yourself first then you are able to loves others. But I just don't get it and able to accept it since all this time I'm putting everyone else before me.

The first time I was thinking about my self and it feels good.

What A World Now Days

Yesterday morning I was feeling dizzy and feels like I can vomit anytime. I have tears in my eyes and I was blinking hard all the time to get rid of the tears. Trying to pull myself together. I know the cup nearly full and it's time for me to drain it before I lose my mind. I'm breathing deeply and waiting for the moment. I know the moment will come for me to vomit and drained the cup. It was less than a week and the cup nearly full. What a week and what a world now days.

At last the moment comes and I rushed downstairs. It was a painful moment but I'm used to it. Suddenly I'm feeling okay and able to smile. It was like nothing had happen and I'm fresh all over again. Something that I'm used to also except that I'm a bit exhausted and had a harsh voice.

Go and find positive energy I was told but where is the positive energy when all I can sense is negative in the air. What a sad world now days when everyone is swallowing their dreams and letting go their own happiness just to survive this world. What a heavy world now days when everyone is carrying burdens on their shoulders all day all around. What a tense world now days when everyone is tied and boundary is all around them.

Again, what a world now days.