Need to do this

Still feels so exhausted and weak. I have no strength for the day. I have no strength to lift up my magic scissors. I have tears in my eyes as I gather the remaining strength to cut the invisible string. Why is it so hard for me today. Anyhow, I need to do what I need to do no matter how hard it is. 

Finding back myself

I woke up this morning feeling lost. I could not sense myself inside of me. It's a crowded room inside of me full of emotions and energies of humans from last night function. Closing my eyes for a very long time and searching back one by one until I finally find back the familiar face in the crowded faces of friends and strangers.

I am a Pretender

I feels so deep

Yet I pretend that I don't care

I care so much

Yet I pretend that I'm heartless

I know so much

Yet I pretend that I know nothing

Freedom to choose

From far I heard the echos of the crying wind searching it's way to my heart. Again and again until I myself lost in the middle of myself. I seek and I learned how to save myself and my heart. Until a few days back finally I learned and able to cut this unseen bond because I care. I'm free to choose and I'm free to care.

Honestly

I don't have sympathy for you

And I don't even feels sorry for you

You see others like you see your self

You categorized your self and you categorized others as well

Honestly

I care for you and it's simple as that

Honestly

I like you as you are and it's just a fact

Honestly

You are a special person and I won't trade you for others

I'm smiling to my heart - 2

Every time I'm smiling to my own heart, I'm smiling to the world as well.