A Hope

I stayed in the silence of my heart.
Do you think of me sometimes?
Hoping this heart of mine being missed by you.

A part of my journey

I was crushed to the ground.
Staring at the sky above me.
Thinking....
Why my legs feels weak and shaking.
Why my heart feels heavy and bleeds.
What am I suppose to do.
What am I suppose to feel.
Can my legs move and can I stand on my feet.
Can my heart heals and can I smiles again.
I move my fingers and touch my legs, feeling the muscles.
They are still good legs and still strong and firm.
Surely I can stand up on the ground though it's hard.
And I put my hand to my chest.
Feeling the heartbeat and the rhythm of my pulse.
Closing my eyes and looking back for the passion inside of me.
Surely it's somewhere inside never lost but lost in time.
It's just a part of life.
A part of my journey.

Believe in me

I may be weak right now.
I may be a loser right now.
Let time took me away.
Let me heals in time.
When the time comes.
I will stand up again as i will always do.
This is who I am.
I fall and I stand up again.
Stronger than before.
Bolder than before.
As always.
Believe in me.

A gift of love

Love will never let us choose.
Love itself is never a choice.
Let alone.
A person to fall in love with.
Mysteriously as it can be.
More mysteriously as it can get.
Looking at the horizon, endlessly.
There is no end to this world.
As there is no end to love and emotion.
This feeling is a gift.
A gift that choose it's receiver.
A gift that choose it's time and place.
But it's never the receiver's choice.
To choose or to make.
Being given this gift.
Is to cherish and to hold on to.
As the moment could be forever.
And forever could be a moment.

If it takes

A pain will never last long.
That's what I said to myself.
Comforting my own heart.
And my lips curve into a smile.
Am I lying to my self?
If it takes
Am I pretending to the world?
If it takes

Silently

I am whispering silently.
But my heart is shouting endlessly.
Hoping for the love that never come to me.
Can you hear my pounding heart.
That is beating hard for you.
Can you see my eyes.
That is looking soft at you.
But if I am a burden for you.
I will let my self to the door silently.
From afar I will be.
Silently in my own world.
Looking upon your world.

A fool is what I am

Tears drop from my eyes.
For some reason, I am a person that can't be loved.
As a fool I look my self upon.
As a fool I stand still with my heart.
Without a reason, my heart is beating for you.
How can I live with this feeling inside of me.
How can I leave knowing that I would die.
I closed my eyes tightly.
Breathing in deeply.
Feeling the emotion inside my heart.
Deeper than the ocean, higher than the sky.
If I expand my flame, it's around you that I will protect.
As a fool I will stand firm on this shaky ground.
As a fool I will I smile to the world around me.
As to love you is what I want.
A fool is what I am.

Learning

There are always a learning.
Find the learning or the learning will find us.

A person I see in you

I see a person in you that keep on giving and giving.
Giving to all your loves one around you.
A person that never take even a single thing.
A person that I see passion in your eyes, your beautiful glowing lovable eyes.
The eyes that gives all of you.
The inside and outside.
The heart and soul.
So beautiful.
The person I see in you.
A person I cherish and never letting go.

A Single Post

A Single Post.
This Post for My Friend Ana.

The End of the Edge

You pushed people to the end of the edge.
It's good for them said you.
Because it's not you who watch the deep water below.
And it's not you that experiencing the heartbeat

I've seen it and I survived the edge said you.

But you forgot something starts from the beginning.
Some people will stayed and survived the edge.
Most people falls from the edge.
And they plunged into the cold water below

Too bad because they are not up to it said you.

But you forgot another thing about the end.
They fall and yes they suffer badly.
But they find another new life after the end of the fall.
A beginning of a new life without you.

So, you should just get over it.

Lost and Found

I lost something within inside of me.
My passion and my curiosity.
I can't find a single thing I like about life.
To move on with my life.

I feel crushed and smashed.
I looked beyond my hands.
And I see nothing that I look forward to.
As I starred blindly at the ceiling above me.

"You just forgot", someone dear said.
"Find them back", because I'm here with you.

Realisation of Truth

You're a mess. That's what you said.
I'm a ship wreck. That's what I said.

Suddenly...

I came into realisation as I see, hear and feel.
I look beyond my heart and deep into me.
It's true that my heart is true.

And it seems...

No matter how my heart burst into flame.
I shall became quiet.
No matter how fragile I've become with this sensation.
I shall became quiet.
No matter how weak my knees have became.
I shall became quiet.
No matter how many tears running down my cheeks.
I shall became quiet.

Because...

It's the realisation of truth.
of my heart.