Miracle Words for the heart

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Ya Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Thee do we serve and Thee do we beseech for help.

Ya Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Thee do we serve and Thee do we beseech for help.

Ya Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Thee do we serve and Thee do we beseech for help.

Glorious is God.

Part of my heart being ripped off

There are things that currently making my hearts so weak and sad. So sad that I'm thinking about giving up what I'm currently living and had. Start all over again from zero and scratch. Scratching my head hoping that my decision is the wise thing to do. Before anybody realise, I'll already gone and I hope it's good for me.

But today, part of my heart being ripped off. I just bursting into tears. I try to be strong but tears kept rolling down from my eyes. I'm trembling and trying to find my ground to stand back again. I just lost in my words and I just don't know what to say anymore.

God, I pray for the future of my sister. God, I seek for the best for my sister. God, I wish for the better in health for my sister.

Ameen.

Who are we

When I'm young my dad used to ask me to show him who I am. When I put my finger to my nose, he will say that's a nose and not me. Where ever I put my finger at will always get the same answers like ears, eyes, hairs, mouth, cheek, etc. Always makes me confused and wondering who and what am I. Finally I will ask him to show me me and he will ask me to close my eyes first. Closed my eyes and he will show me but how do I know when I can't see.

I didn't get it at first. But now I understand. Who we are and what we are are as a whole. Flesh and bone. In and out. Body and soul. Feelings and emotions. Brain, heart and guts.

That can never be separated and identify individually. When I closed my eyes, I'm able to feels myself as a whole. each part of me. Now, even when I opened my eyes, I'm still able to feels myself, as a complete person.

Letting go

Sometimes there are lots of things that I want to let go. Keeping them only makes my hearts ache more and I feels like being sucks into an empty holes beneath the earth. I'm suffocated and can't breath properly. But what stops me from letting go. My brain want to let them go like releasing arrows into the darkness night where I would not know where they are going but I'm sure they won't come back ever. My heart want to let them go like throwing boomerangs to any directions when I know they will come back somehow. Decision need to be made somehow. In this situation the only thing that I can do is to drop them into the fast flowing river of life and let them flows away wherever the current may take them.

A Title

I could not sleep last night as suddenly a title come across my mind. I don't know how and I don't know why but it just wont go away. May be it's something that I need to do or it is something that I want to do.

I could not sleep again tonight as the story line appears in my mind. Something got to do with hearts and emotions. Something that is lost between the time which need to be found again. Finding reason to believe and live again. A seek to the past but not to alter the current situation. A decision to be made to change the future for the better.

Seeing and experience back the memories that most forgotten. A vivid world right in front of our eyes yet they pass through us like we don't exist. Like the wind pass through the tree branches touch us with a new hope. Overwhelming and deep as the guide stood by side.

Feeling back the past memories were what the clients want. Something that they held previously which they lost for them to move forward. Searching back the lost memories is what the guide want. As the token of hope held grip in one hand needs for a answer. An answer that have been searching through sleepless nights when others falls asleep. Long and waiting patiently without any where to look upon. A miracle seek helplessly. For the right place and the right time.

A rejected client is the key. The unknown reason being put aside by force without second thought. When the client seek for forgiveness for things he did in the past and to release the burden so to move on. A connected past and memories bring back hope that lost half way between the time. To find back love and to win back life. A future is certain again to all the lost hearts. A guide that found back his love and lost memories through time. A guide that found back his life and future.

My worth

As I'm wishing upon a star. A star is wishing upon me. What am I. Is more than just a star. More than any star wishing to be. As I've been given a life and more than just a life. A heart and a soul. A life worth my life.

A miracle that I seek

When things wasn't going my way, may be it was showing me the other way. Should I turn my face around as my heart was still hoping to stand as it is. All this time I've been feeling others and suddenly I'm hearing my own heart's pounding. All my life I have been crying for others and now I'm crying for my self. I want so much to let go and yet tears drop begging me not to let go. Not yet silently my heart whispering. Until when, I'm not sure. A miracle that I seek. My days and my nights. My present and my future. My heart and my soul. In GOD I put my hope upon.