A few weeks ago, I've been very angry. Angry at everything and angry at myself. I could not think clearly and wishing I could blame others if I could. Sleepless night and I can't really enjoy my life, anywhere I was. Either alone or with friends. I felt that I was wronged and it should not be that way.
I need a second opinion and I talk to friends. Being a manipulator is half what I am. Friends agreed with me and still I'm not satisfied. Somethings wrong because my heart is still not at ease. Still feeling angry and frustrated. Wish I could blame someone. Wish I could give up and go. But still, something unclear and something unfinished.
I still need another opinion which is not bias. Who will not be bias in this situation. At last I called my mom and explain to her my situation. Seeking a wise and experience words which I need to hear either I favour them or not.
I am at the wrong side as my mom said. I am selfish and un considerable as my mom said. I should have mercy and considerate even I like it or not as she continued advising me. My mom said that pain words comes from pain heart and soul. They comes out unintentionally. They may regret later but they can't help it when it happens. What ever people do to you, don't do the same things to others.
My mom did not bias nor favour me. Indeed wise words although I'm reluctant to accept at first. But what she said is the truth and the fact which I need to accept and change my way of thinking. Changing my way of thinking suddenly put my heart at ease.
