Question and Answer II

Sometimes.

I don't really ask questions that I already knew the answers.

Somehow.

I don't really ask questions just for the sake of asking.

Someday.

You will realise that you should have answered them.

Lie to me

Nobody tells us life is full of lies

But somehow we learn life the way it is

You know it and I know it

You make believe what you want me to believe

Nobody talks about honor anymore

Anybody care about owning back anything

Was it worth it at the end

Was it worth till the end

Own Back Myself

Slowly I'm regaining back my thoughts

As I put a pause in my current time

Stop moving forwards and letting go the past

Feeling back the pain in my heart

Embracing myself from deep inside

Breathing in and out in silence

Listening to my own heart beat and feeling the pulse

As my energy moving like the ocean wave

I emerge back from this state of unconsciousness

Stupid could I be but it won't stay long

Because wiser that I have become

Everytime I woke up and own back myself

Not in Someone Else

Losing myself again

Lost in thought and life became restless again

My heart showing the sign of uneasiness

Looking down at my feet

Trying to figure out this heavy weight

That I put myself into

And carrying around my shoulders

Am I'm true to myself

Hoping to find

The will and the strength of an eagle

Not in someone else

Patient

Being patient is what I am to you

No reason is what I gave to you

Waiting to bloom is what you are

Is what I felt and it is still as strong

As it first felt long time ago

The moment I decided to be patient

To guide and to protect a heart

To be by the side through all weathers

Still I have no answer to your question

Because what being seek is not the answer

You will understand when the time comes

You will feel it and embrace your self

The joy in your heart and the balance in your life

The day your wings spread out and fly into the sky

You will smile when you look down to the earth below

Beautiful landscape and beautiful life

Flying towards the horizon is what you will do

Endless journey with all your hearts

You will find you

Chances

Today, my sister is being given a second chance that will change her life and her future.

Today, I grab a chance to change my life and my future.

Whatever the future there are for us, we will never know but it would not stop us from making changes and move on.

We realised that it's not that easy to be strong and we were not born to be weak either.

Great thanks to Allah for all the guidance and help we needs.

Feels like remembering

Human and their hearts. Their hearts especially. Without their knowing, they are shouting in the wind and crying for help. Nobody will able to listen except for some certain people. People that walks through families, friends and strangers like nothing happen. People that closed their eyes with tears dropping silently whilst curving a slightly smile of hope and love. People that took a deep breath to inhale the pain of others and exhale the lights into their surrounding. People that placed their hand to their chest and hearts, feelings their own heartbeats with love and affection. People like me and others like me. Attract me like no other.

Everything we feels are like remembering. Remembering the feelings. Feelings of happiness and sufferings. If we never experience, we would never knew as we could never remember. People like us needs to feels and needs to remember the feelings. Being gifted and able to give back is why we are born. Reason for our awakening and time for us to awake does not depends on us as we only following the path that has been set for us. Somehow we have to experience more than others not only for us but for others as well. For some reasons we are are able to endure the experiences as we are built for having the reason to remember all the feelings.

To feels loves more than others. To receive and gift love like no others. Still feels like remembering and remember the feelings. This is how we are. Not only for us but for others.